I miss her.......

I want to be really angry about the futile conspiracy theory that escalated about her death. Sometimes.....even as gutted as I am, we should just let some people respectfully die......just want to consider how much life she gave me..........can we leave her with that?










Some not all.....just some....still miss home...

Sting: Obama best person to handle world's 'mess'

Well we were wondering what he was up to weren't we? No? No... nor I?

By NEKESA MUMBI MOODY in an interview with Sting October 28th 2009

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NEW YORK — Sting isn't a religious man, but he says President Barack Obama might be a divine answer to the world's problems.

"In many ways, he's sent from God," he joked in an interview, "because the world's a mess."

But Sting is serious in his belief that Obama is the best leader to navigate the world's problems. In an interview on Wednesday, the former Police frontman said that he spent some time with Obama and "found him to be very genuine, very present, clearly super-smart, and exactly what we need in the world."

"I can't think of anyone better qualified because of his background, his education, particularly in regard to Islam," he said.

Still, Sting acknowledged the president had a "difficult job" ahead of him.

The British singer, who released the seasonal album "On A Winter's Night" this week, said he's fascinated by American politics, Obama, and also by Obama's opponents on the right.

"It's aggressive and violent and full of fear," he said of the backlash against Obama. "They don't want change, they want things to feel the same because they feel safe there."

Sting, 58, said he's hopeful that the world's problems can be dealt with, but is frustrated that "we seem to be living in a currency of medieval ideas."

"My hope is that we can start talking about real issues and not caring about whether God cares about your hemline or your color," he said. "We are here to evolve as one family, and we can't be separate anymore."

Well lets be thankful it wasn't Bono eh?

Now what was I saying earlier??

This is Ron Paul, no stranger to most of you that follow politics with rigor (I hold my hands up, I had to Wiki his Bio, oh yeah sorry for citing Wiki but it's late and I needed to vent!). But anyway if you don’t, in short, he ran for the US Presidency in '88 for the Libertarians and ’08 as a Republican. I just wanted to defend my rant about Obama and what better way than with someone who is in the know, campaigns for liberty and is incredibly eloquent in his deliverance.





If we think Obama is about peace, then why is there still a war continuing in Afghanistan? Ron’s right, Obama and the Bush legacy have made it into an acceptable defensive process toward a war against terror and how can we resist such tact? To vocalise your contempt for this campaign makes you no better than an extreme fundamentalist. Why is this reminding me of the cold war?

We need to stop being schmoozed by these leaders because before we know it, Tony Blair will be Prince of Europe and Obama crowned King of an International Government, a movement that will have no issue using weapons and force to create Western customised ‘peace’. As I suggested earlier we have to ask ourselves what are the motives behind this? And whom will it benefit in the end?

Now what thinks you of this prize?

Oh Bama......I guess it's something to tell the grand kids eh?

The differences between these two men? One has a better tailor, lives in the West, parades as a catalyst for change, drops in half way through life long political struggles claiming some of the glory..oh and just won a Nobel. The other one IS an achiever!





I swear I haven't got it in for Obama...and I’ll just have a short rant on this subject, because lets face it, I think we are all pretty much one minded about this award. I am not about to talk about and compare my much loved Mother Theresa and Martin Luther King, who without blinking deserved such distinction. I shan’t even mention the life threatening efforts of the nominated Morgan Tsvangirai. He battled that damn Mugabe for years watching people who opposed him disappear and be powerless to prevent it, then moving into a position not of death but sat beside the tyrant leader, in a some what unbelievable coalition.

No No…why would I highlight such obviousness. Because you and I know when we hear those names they instantly evoke the images of strength, bravery, pride, honour and heart swelling admiration we adorn to them because it is something we could not have possibly achieved, even with the life we have left.

I’ll not utter a sound.

But what I will say is, if after eleven days of being freshly in the White house you were told that you would be nominated for such an award, why didn’t you take the committee to one side and say no thanks lets put it off a couple of years? No? Well ok, alright, you probably thought to yourself, no fucking way will I win it…I’ve only been here a short while it couldn’t possibly be awarded to me? and if it did, then wouldn’t you think to yourself it’s because the international stage have obviously got some kind of hidden agenda in mind. Which if you think of race relations and religious connotations, those agendas become quite transparent, wafts of internationalism.

Surely an intelligent man like you would have turned around and said no, lets wait, who would respect me for having it? How could I respect myself? Because you do realise, without a shadow of a doubt, everybody thinks you are being awarded it for being the first black President don’t you? You haven’t done anything else, except talk about your intentions and I am not buying into the argument that the award is about ‘encouragement not achievement’ because if that were the case, then you still fall behind Doctors without borders or Aid workers to name but a few and where are their awards?

So when you pick up that award and give that speech, of which I can NOT wait to hear! When you get back home just ask yourself the one question, are you really worthy to stand in the same line up with those other achievers oops sorry encouragers and feel equal?

I would have respected you more if you had said no and handed it to Tsvangirai.

Adage :
Tsvangirai congratulates Obama http://news.bbc.co.uk/1/hi/world/africa/8299441.stm

I think that speaks volumes....

Iz it because I iz black? ummm well yes... but it's not just about me...

It’s that time again, where I turn off Classical FM and conveniently highlight my ancestry with the sound of Peter Tosh dub wafting out my cottage door. I could quite easily be perceived as a coconut sat on this white middle class Estate, I confess sometimes I do forget what my parents sacrificed in order for me to be sat here but I can assure you, living in the UK it’s a memory lapse that occurs infrequently. After all I am the only black living on this hill and I'm not the help !!

So try not to start any mass political debate about the blacks having a month to celebrate their heritage and don’t do that ‘us and them’ standardised argument.. ‘if there is a black month there should be a white month’. Do try to avoid the constant droning bitter grumblings of… ‘better not be government funded’!!….give that monotone moaning a rest. For this month serves not just as a celebration for the BHM culture but a reminder of the importance of how we....yes I said WE, as a country have changed, grown, educated ourselves about the integration of other cultures, improved and moved on more harmoniously now. Much more congruent, than that of the days of the Brixton riots, Bradford and the lovely stop, batter, arrest then search tactics of the police back in the day. We all need to see and have this benchmark. It’s no longer an ‘us and them’ society, *coughs* well not as much… if anything the lack of popular support for the BNP thankfully evidences that.

So for all those Windrush, Ugandan Asians, Bengali, Chinese, Indian and African next generation to name a select few. If it weren’t for the utter horrific hardships our parents and ancestors had to endure, when they were actually INVITED here, to help strengthen the UKs infrastructure in order to make their lives better, which in turn aided our parents lives to improve. Then we sure as hell wouldn’t be as thriving when we make the comparison to some of the countries they have left behind.

And to all the original inhabitants of the UK you need to celebrate this month along side the BHM. If you look at the history of the immigration here, you will see it is a partnership that overall has worked and as much as the UK gives me constant despair, I am actually really proud of our progress. It’s these celebrations that bring it home to me that there really are worse places you could be living. Not really surprising people are bashing down the door to get here, we all worked fucking hard to get this place so desirable.

So press the play button below, collect some soul food, sit back and for once instead of moaning about what we need to achieve, lets really feel good about just how much we have.




Spliffs optional of course....

Billy the Brit??

I can't stop laughing at this. I actually can't believe it’s real but I still think the BNP party is an elaborate side of my mind playing tricks on me. It’s a regressive part of me just there to remind me of how things use to be, far from a representation of what’s happening now and just couldn’t be. I would find it hard to understand something so preposterous can seriously exist in this country in this day and age. I know I’m not wrong as this video proves it.




You see utter jest .... and where was St George in all of that? Probably getting a kebab...

For all you who don't know the BNP (British National Party) it is a political movement in England (or in my mind) that would prefer Britain to be as pure as possible. Not too keen on immigration, they have no issues with being in the EU or living in other peoples countries, no that's fine, just much prefer if the rest of the world didn't come to the UK and take their jobs and so on.

You see.... makes no sense so it dosn't really exist.

I'm back....

Hello guys

First like to apologise for not being around for a while. Not that I was a prolific blogger but hey my absence was still noticed and I thank you for that. What have I been doing? Getting my daughter off the roof howling at the moon in tense anticipation for her GCSE results. We both wanted these. If you’re a single parent then you will understand what I mean, we both NEEDED them and because she is a very hard working, talented girl, she passed, mummy cried and we continue to move forward not backward or even standing still. And trust me coming from a Guyanese, Christian, Windrush household, forward movement is paramount, especially living in the UK.

My kid lives with her Grandparents and to cut that long story short it’s so she could have the best life and the same life I had as a child. Therefore avoiding my life of domestic violence, copious amounts of drink, homelessness. Shared households with Muslim men (not as fun as that sounds), box rooms with racist neighbours with a hammer as I remember smashing through my door. Bedsits and unavoidable drugs in the rave era (didn’t really have a drug problem just liked taking them). There is more to that story that reveals me to sound less selfish but I’m too happy to dredge up the weepy stuff now but if Thatchers government didn't decree that I had made myself homeless, which I didn't I had a baby for fuck sake, then cut my child support because I wouldn't tell them were my violent ex-partner was....hmm? Can't think why I didn't do that...if the bitch hadn't hated single parents so much, then it may have been a different story, such a different story for a decade of single parents. It was a key time of social change, people weren't getting married as much, single parents were on the rise and morals and values passed by our parents were challenged as religion became a ridiculous paradigm which stopped making any sense in our modern lives and was on it's way out. And who did she blame for this shift in social awareness and punish?....The women.

Never usually hang pictures of my daughter up. Aside from always living in transition, I always felt that I had failed her and that she would look back at me and I would feel guilty and tearful. It's her second week of A levels today, she tells me to stop saying sorry as I have nothing to be sorry about....we had such a great chat on the phone last night and then continued on MSN and I even put her to bed. (Sounds odd but we have our ritual)

I didn't sleep the night following her first day of Sixth Form I was so happy, excited, overwhelmed and breathing a sigh of relief. Looking back at the pictures of her and I living in that god awful damp ridden flat 17 years ago, then making the decision to give her up to my mum, is pain you will never understand unless you have been through it yourself. Comparing that anguish to the utopia I feel now, is simply amazing. She is making her own decisions about her love of music and the piano and is working to go on to University, I can't stop grinning. And as for me, I am getting ready to write my dissertation for my MSc and a proposal for my PhD sat at my office desk, in a wee detached cottage, on an upper middle class rural hill in Scotland. Marx would kill me but after a couple of glasses of Jura Whisky he would soon understand!

I need to buy more picture frames...I'm not afraid of her wee eyes looking back at me....I KNOW we're finally both smiling now and proving Thatcher wrong. Maybe she was an accidental feminist and thats why my story is ending in some success but personally I can't wait for the funeral.